fishing self

it's interesting how people can easily lose themselves.
i know i've fallen victim to that,
but not for awhile...a long while
and i'm glad of that.
Of course, I have suffered much for swimming against the powerful waves of conformity
but at least i don't have to suffer from those awful moments of realization and regret of actions made out of character.

And we all know: I have character

of course there have been those terrible moments when i've been torn
about how easy it would be just to follow the crowd
or to just follow whatever direction the wind blows....
but then...i would lose myself
and i've worked so hard to be...well...myself
or to even reach a point of knowing and feeling comfortable with myself.
Hence, despite being in a conservative atmosphere...
i'm really not going to hide myself.
I haven't and the people have accepted me that way.
It's not just b/c of my unique character...but it's also b/c my co-workers and peers know that how I act is completely honest
they know i'm not faking or hiding who i am.
I just..well...am.
And they can't really shun me for being...well...me.
You can't get mad at a person who's being entirely honest about themselves to you.
It's not a deception,
so how can you be mad at a person who has no intention and has not decieved you?
you just can't!


Anyways, that's just something that i wanted to write.
On another note, I've been asked if i wanted to continue being a teacher...perhaps as a long time thing.
My answer?
HELLS NO!
at the moment, i am utterly uninspired as a teacher.
Majority of the time, i feel like smacking a few of the kids.
I also don't think i would ever be enthused about teaching children or any individuals that are the likes of the people i'm currently teaching.
Also, the paperwork is extremely tedious and a plenty.
It's sad that the best part of my work would probably be editting my co-worker's works or the journals the children are assigned to write.
But then...this does beat being a filing girl, a physiotherapist's assistant...or a factory worker (and i should know, since i've had said occupations in my past)
And i'm just enjoying the perks of being here.
Including the many paid holidays...and the many holidays, in general
*huzzah* to asia and their numerous holidays, in comparison to the frugal north americans!

i'll end this entry now.
there were a few things i wanted to put down here...
but it's not fully thought out.

sophie says "hello, my lovely audience. Come and play with me!"
*gawd* she's such a whore.
lol