as i sit here in darkness

hello everyone,
currently, i'm sitting at the foot of the bed of my co-worker's.
just keeping her company till she goes to sleep...
where i'll somehow attempt to maneuver myself in her apartment in pitch darkness to make my exit and down to my apartment...
while attempting to be stealthy......
in my flip flops, pajamas, and jeans...
i sense doom in this mission.

Although, she has graciously allowed me to mooch off her internet
due to some unknown reasons...i have no access to the internet at my apartment..
except for msn messenger.
weird indeed.

to seek company when one is upset.
how intriguing...
something that i, personally, avoid...
but whatever works for others is all fine with me.

Lately, i've been appalled by my surrounding's lack of proper senior care.
the individuals doing menial jobs, such as garbage collecting..a la carting a large cart around the city picking and sorting garbage, by foot, might i add!; cleaning rooms; farming; handing out pamphlets on the streets and so forth
are senior citizens!
i also just recently found out Korea lacks any decent senior care/long term care...
some government assisted funding and so forth.
I find this quite appalling not simply b/c i come from a society with somewhat of a different approach to senior care,
but the fact that this place is supposedly based on Confucian teachings
where one should respect and honor one's elders.

the thing is:
some of my values, especially this particular attitude towards senior care, IS somewhat derived from Confucian teachings.
I did grow up in a somewhat conservative family
and the value of seniors was constantly pounded into my head
as i interacted with my grandparents, older relatives, and so on.

This has slightly reignited my need to improve senior care at home (if not the world).
my proposal and project has been on the back burner since convocation.
but it has still constantly be at the back of my mind.
This...realization and experience has angered me...
but also rejuvenated me to strive to really complete my personal project.

...who said anger never led to anything productive!